The Twilight of my life

I thought I had a very thick, icy, vampire strong layer of protection around my heart so as to prevent me from letting it get broken again.  And then I met someone whose most perfect perfection melted the thick ice, and the whirlwind movie style romantical scrumtrulescense of it all broke down the vampire strong layer of protection.  Once my heart was exposed, my brain no longer had a say in my actions.  I dove right in, junior high style, to the Edward and Bella-ness that it was and just…let it.

And that poor unprotected heart of mine got broken.  So now, it feels like the part of New Moon where Edward leaves because it’s the right thing to do (or whatever stupid thing) and Bella is just floating through life in a pool of misery.

It’s been a while since I shared some of my awful poetry from high school.  There is one particularly fitting to the sad patheticosity (spell check had no spelling suggestions for that word.  I feel like that’s a win for me) of how I am feeling right now.  Feel free to laugh and cry.  It’s a real gem.

Between Now and Forever

Somewhere in your head

You’ll hear me laughing

And somewhere in your mind

You’ll see me smile

And somewhere when you’re

Walking down the street

You’ll think I’m there

Because you’ll feel my presence

Near you for a while

Sometime in the night

The wind won’t whistle

And sometime in a park

The birds won’t sing

And sometime in this silence

You’ll remember who I was

Because that voice of mine

Inside your head will ring

Somewhere down the road

Nights will be lonely

And somewhere down the line

You will feel down

Because you’ll feel like something

From your life is missing

And you’ll realize

You’re needing me around

Sometime in a dream

You will kiss me

And sometime in a dream

You’ll hold me tight

And then you will awaken

With a sadness you can’t bear

Because you’ll feel a painful

Emptiness inside

Somewhere in this sometime

You will miss me

And sometime in this somewhere

Won’t be never

And when it happens you won’t know

Just how much time has passed

But it will be somewhere

Between now and forever

And I’ll be waiting between now and forever

I told you it was a gem, did I not?  I think it could easily be a country song.